I Think I Love Him (before engagement)

I have seen God change my heart. I'm falling in love with him. I never ever in my wildest dreams thought I would, but I am. He is so wonderful! He has won my heart by his unconditional, selfless love that he showed me so constantly for so long. He loved me for an entire year before God put a green light in my path. I knew how wonderful he was, but something was holding me back, and I begged God to take it away and let me fall in love with him, but it remained there until about a month ago when God showed me that I needed to grow up and not base my decisions on fear. He is so wonderful. I miss him. I wish he were here with me right now. But i'm almost glad he is coming after Christmas rather than before. I think it would have been harder to say goodbye to him right before Christmas, but this way I can miss him, yet look forward to spending time with him in a couple of weeks. I can't keep my mind off of that boy! He is the first boy I have trusted his word since I was 16. I thought I would never again let beautiful words affect me...but He is the first since my heart was broken in high school. I kind of think he is "the one." I can't believe I'm saying that, but I do think it.